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The Voice of my SoulI donno how I feel that pain, but I can admit that it's harder everyday. My tear falls so easy, easier than the day before. Evils surround me, and I am fighting and fighting! My power is in loss!! Sometimes I feel that my legs can't support me anymore. Can this happens? I am only 21 years old! what about the rest of my life, it's supposed to be harder; cause the more you grow the more you have problems and responsabilities. Till when I'll say everything will be ok?? (although it's me who say that to myself) till when I'll be in that deep need?? I am tired, not that fatigue that will be cured with 8 hrs of sleeping, but with manythings that I can't find. I wonder from where the mind come with its imagination and fiction, not from reality cause it's so tough, but I believe that the source is wonderful. The most difficult thing when my mind ask me questions with no replies! Strange that maybe more than 60% of people dream of the same things that can be happened indeed, not with money but with humans manners or acts and though! little who fulfill their dreams. Is this a missed connection?! people can't communicate anymore with each other?? how?! and why?! I am not depressed or trying to not be at least. But who says that oneday I'll hug myself to feel comfortable?? quite strange but it happened. My mind is just a curse, so wise who said that the mind is its own place, can make heaven of hell and a hell of heaven; very deep thought.. just I wish to turn my hell to heaven as soon as it could be. The last days I made some artworks, I'll attach it in this blog or maybe you can see them at www.flickr.com/photos/artistica or www.shadowness.com/artistica , thanks for reading my words..... My Last Artwork ;)I FINISHED MY EXAMSS!! VIVRE LES VACANCES!!
 But I have a training this summer and I don't have time to sleep :(
so much work! and so many events these days!
My cousin got married and that's the best thing ever
 My uncles came to visit us from USA too!!
HERE IS SOME NEW ARtWORK I MADE
 I hope you like it! THE NIGHTMARE
MISS YOU MY FRIENDS!!!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!
JUST WANNA SAY TO IRINY, MY INTIME...
THAT I ADORE HER!! AND WE'LL BE FRIENDS FOREVER My New Art Work - © MAYMADLYBook of Days is my new manipulated art, made with PHOTOSHOP CS2; actually it says a lot about me.. I know the girl is in pain! well, we all pass with this period for a while in our life... BUT I know that I didn't lose hope yet :) !! Do you see the baby!! on her shoulder, covered with some leaves! YEAH!! This's my baby, [tell you a secret] I really wish to be pregnant lolAnyway! let me tell you my news! I am in deep exams from a month and till now!! I'll finish the mid term exams on 11 May!! and will start again on 29 :(( the final!!!! and it'll end on 23 Juin! I have really Zillion of plans this summer!! I wait for it like a thirsty man need a drop of water!! Wish me luck.. kiss and love for you all!
Deep insideCan anybody tell me why I feel so now? Extreme loneliness, extreme sadness.. And if I think about escaping, I can't find anyway but death.. And if I think about resisting and having faith, I don't find but... Isolation. I wonder if anybody can get what I feel, or even if anybody can help me in such a thing. Maybe what I am talking about is so personal, but what I really feel inside me is that I need Love, and not any love but True one, and I swear if I find it I'll pay my life to protect it. But what I am in now is killing me, and I don't wanna die.
Long time!I know it has been long time that I didn't write or publish any art work. I am really so tired and busy these days. But I can't deny that still there's some sweet things that let me feel alive and full of energy. Lately, I joined a new community; Actually I am here now to say how much this place is wonderful and how much I enjoyed my time there, many artists and many friends, like 30 000 members with sweet sisters and brothers too, and you can find your lover there as well lol anyway it's 2:27 am now and I have faculty tomorrow so I won't talk long but I'll let you see my last pieces, and I hope you like them. Have a wonderful day all.
Who opened the door?
This one called "Who opened the door?" it's a new art that I didn't use it before but it's manipulating still composed from 3 pieces and some effects.
Sitting alone..
Thinking about million things that flecked my brain... yea, who don't have the instinct of desire? who doesn't want to feel pleasure? and who want to sit alone in this dark room? My soul is full of thoughts upside down... maybe I want to....... An instant..... Who opened the door?? ONCE UP ON A TIME
Second piece is "Once up on a time" this one really says a lot of things and when I finished it, I felt really the eyes of life in. Drawing then manipulating. Sometimes when I walk for a while...
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The Last Symphony - 14/01/2006 COMMETNS AND REVIEWING ON MY ART ARE WELCOME EVEN IF YOU SAY IT'S SHIT - I'LL RESPECT IT :-X - LOVE YOU ALL - HaPpy EID :)AND ANOTHER ART WORK ;) Z O O M IN :: I HOPE YOU LIKE IT :: ~ ~ ~ Signorita Elmira With a smile on your faceMy Last Art Work Zoom in --> Special Request for Sassy Il se peut que le grand problème de notre vie ne soit pas tellement de vivre mais , finalement, de naître. Si tu saisis en toi cette pulsation merveilleuse
The problem in our lives is not really how to live , it is rather how to be born. Although it is said that we have troubles in how to live; Don't we rather have the trouble to be born?? Which means to become those we really are? Cause we are not those we seem to be: famous or unknown, rich or poor, skilfull or not .. All these are the apperance of things. We are creatures that seek to be born. If you catch in yourself this marvelous heart-beat that incites you to be today different from the one you were yesterday... this means you are being born.. If you feel yourself able to love with a totally new Love that you didn't hope for before... Then you are being Born.. Be sure that the biggest thing in life is not to live... but it's to be born, to be born constantly so that we don't grow old ............ First, I want to tell you that I am much better now. I was so depressed in the last few days, maybe cause I was in the begining of my eXams and some other problems, now after I had one exam and I did it fine thank God! I feel that I can go on. I still have another 5 eXams, I wish that I do well in them. Now I am missing something so important in all the people's life which is feelings, some people take some feelings from their family, other from their friends and other from a lover.. As I don't have the family' feeling so much cause of the reasons that I already talk about it and that I don't have the lover one cause I am not commited, so I don't have but the friends' one!But unfortunately sometimes I feel it's not enough for me, I need more or maybe not more but with a different way. The feelings that I am talking about it's maybe concentrating on caring, tendress, affection..etc it's how you close your eyes at night with a smile on your face, with peace that fulfil your heart. I donno how many of us need that, but I am sure that I need it so much. and I wonder how many of us need something and can not get it cause it's something that you can not pay for. Yes it's much more valuable than anybody could think. With a smile on your face, that your beloved just gave.. You close your eyes, finally realise.. It's all what you need in your life.. It's just a simple dream, that you met each Beam.. And it's not only yours, but all of us have seen.. Sometimes you need to share your feelings, maybe someone could say something release you, or tell you: you know what I feel the same, and at this moment you realise that it's not only you who feel so but many people. And then you don't feel bad anymore cause you are not the only one who feel that, by knowing you are not an alien lol. We must look inside The future holds great promise, Soar bravely toward your goal. May the New Year
Look Closely and guess what it could be??? Yes! they are PENS WITH HIDDEN CAMS
See the forthcoming computers within your pockets
See this!!
Yes! it's true!! our new future keyboard!!!
In the revolution of miniature computers, the scientists are ahead
with Bluetooth Technology! Not only Keyboards!!!! but also monitors!!!
ladies and gentlemen...
congratulations! you've just now
looked into the future!! I'll raise my own flag! I need a miracle to live again.
I am dead! NO I shouldn't give up that easy!
I am not that type! I won't surrender ever!
You won't success in destroying me!
and I won't ever raise The White Flag for any!
Even you! DEVIL! you're created of Hell!
and it's where you'll be!
FORGET IT! I won't be with you there even if it's
my last breathe!
A Message From me
To The Biggest Devil
~ May Madly
Love! Love!
Let you,
Let you fly to another world
Let you pass the hardest ford
Let you smile for only a word
Let you always keep the sword
Let your life turn to gold........
Wish to feel it, please my Lord.
So Let it a new year FULL of LOVE,
it's how you can be happy !!!
This's really me lately!!!!!
I donno how I became that addicted to PC
I should try to stop myself!!! but I donno how :(
I have eXams this 2 January! I feel depressed!
MY NEWEST ART WORK ;)Freedom Cost
To be free..
I close my eyes..
Falling in my thoughts swaying here and there..
Thinking about million flecks so crowded in my mind..
To be free.. I won't hesitate, I won't prostrate!
I need it, and I'll pay its cost! Yes, I won't accept other ways.
She - Deserter
What is the difference between How they treat us?
and How a General treats his soldiers while drill... ?
What's the difference between our home and the war's floor.. ?
She.. Deserter.. They.. Killer of dreams.. Beyond the desert..
The Sable
Paralysed!
They erased my mouth.. They cut my tongue.. They through me in the sable.. By killing all what I own.. By keeping me all alone.. - Give me the KEY -
Just give it to me..
I am chained by my thoughts! Give it to me! I can't be here anymore! Give it to me! I am dying through this fanatic ground! shall I beg you? Give it to me......... The Mantrap of Utopia - Room Number 13 -
I thought it can be true even for a jiff !
Seems that this jiff couldn't be but only in my mind..
My history of imagination is full of million splits of Utopia.. Many rooms!! and each one has a wonderful marvellous door
with a fanatic dark interior design!
yeah, don't judge from the cover of the book once again..
p.s. it's me in this piece. The Reason is You They blame me for my dreams…
They don't feel my tears… They touched even the untouched world… Reality… All what they want, even if it is full of means, of gigs… They hit me for my dreams, which are the only reasons to live… They pretend that they are so big… What if I can make them real…? They condemned dreams… Obligate me to not say what's deep… To stay with my mind forever… Talk to it…Spend time with it… The Butterflies Effect I am cursed by my mind!
It's like a witch that wants me only for her!
Doesn't allow any to claw her magic fantasy..
Waiting for your opinions! See you soon again ;) I am in deep eXams these days, that's why I don't comment a lot! so please don't be sad or upset, soon again I'll be there in your space! Thank you all! and Love you!!! :) A Reply - World War IIIIt ain't easy growing up
in World War III
I am speachless I am confused
You miss your grand ma And I miss my whole family
cause I never felt to be in family I miss feelings I miss sentiments I miss angels I miss pure life! I miss a sweet laugh that erases sorrow
I miss a tender hug that doesn't let me feel solo!
I am alone and who is not!
I am a bone cause I have all this rot! Is life still colorful?
or it's my eyes that have these tripes?
Are flowers still growing?
or it's only me who have these fights?
I am tired I am in pain
But still my life didn't go in vain!
Yeah! I am here I am STILL here
even if nobody hear!
Just beacuse of.... HOPE!
₪ HOPE UNDER MY SKIN ₪
May Madly 2005 - 14:37
Path Number 13 - Scroll Down for My New Art ↓↓↓
Here I am thinking about you my heart lover I open my eyelids each morning waiting for the dark sky coz nights are attached to my dreams where I always find you my beloved A pleasure falls when you pass through my mind A smile drawn when I see our kids joking by my side I donno how I love you till that extant my unknown And I wonder till when my love will grow farther while I didn't see your eyes my soul Will it be unlimited? Will you catch me before I dry? I am longing for your touch, streaming on my flesh I am longing for your kiss, wanting my lips hash When I will be like a pie between your arms mash when I will be just for one and no one but you my whole
© May Madly 17:46 - 29/11/2005 - PATH NUMBER 13 -
- TOP TEN TODAY -
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Romantic MinutesLONG BLOG BUT I DO BELIEVE THAT ROMANCE WORTH IT
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Dedicated to My Unknown Soul mate Thursday 3rd March 2016 The young lady felt like a princess in her dreamy castle, her man is just a magician, she thought about writing her diary so she can read it when she's an old woman with her man or give it to him a gift one day…The girly take a wonderful copy book glittery and seems so romantic only when you take a look of it... she starts to write in the first page…To My Only Man that I dedicated my life to him and our spark, our home… and she begins to feel elated when she sees herself remembering and imagining million things… she writes the first words that came in her mind:
Thinking about him is just something amazing, I donno from where I got this creativity of inventing, I wonder if you are the only reason honey… I just smiled now, maybe coz you're my man, coz we are just the same my lovely soul, you can impress me even if you're not with me
I wake up so tired that morning, but I realized that maybe coz I work hard the last week, But I'm still feeling bad somehow I donno why, I'm still working in my project getting some many good ideas, and my sweet heart told me about an extra idea yesterday that it'll make a new transfer in the whole Maniac World… O I feel worse, I want to vomit… The girl run to the bathroom she couldn't stand, I wonder what happen to her today, she was fine… she felt like she's losing her conscious she can't resist anymore, she tried to call her friend or lover but her lover's line was busy and the other of her friend nobody answered…she run into the ground, closed her eyes… and she didn't open it again,,
After maybe 5 hours her man came home, he entered saying with a loud voice, Baby we got it we WIN… nobody replied… he felt worry somehow but he was thinking maybe she's praying, maybe she's not hearing him, he searches about her in all the rooms, kitchen, hall, he began to run in the flat, and he find her suddenly, lying on the ground, he screamed with her name, and carry her between his strong arms, put her on the bed trying to let her awake, with cologne, onion, he tried everything nothing happened, without thinking he put a robe on her and run with all his speed to his car to reach the closest hospital, he was like a fool, he couldn't realize what is happening, in less than 4 minutes with a big chaos made by him while driving he finally arrived, take her carefully and went to find any one to help him, he passed by a doctor, he was trying to compose a right sentence to explain what happened to her, the doctor take the young lady and examine her.. After 5 minutes which were passing like 5 years for her worried man, the doctor came and said... She's only weak somehow, don't worry at all and there's something else……… you'll be a father… the man jumped with the wider smile everrrr… I didn't see a man happy like this one before, I think he's the happiest man in universe now, He starts to thank the doctor million times, like if he gave him the key of heaven :) The Doc. Told him that her sweet wife should stay in hospital for today till tomorrow so she can be better, he'll gave her some vitamins and calcium for the new baby
The man was like… can't believe it, saying to himself she's pregnant, SHE'S PREGNANT.. We are a Family, O Godd... Thank youuuuuuu, if I thank you for the rest of my life I won't ever afford your blessings...
The man spend the whole night in hospital with her baby, he called his mother and hers to tell them, her best friend and his one, he knew they'll be extra happy with that news… It's 2:45 am, the lover girl begins to open her eyelids, her man didn't sleep, he was just sitting looking to her baby holding her hand, put it on his heart, she look at him.. tell him… where are we? What happened?! He smiled widely saying Guess what could happen… it's only what you do to me everyday, the rain of happiness that you let me taste it in each second… you're the cause of all the wonderful things in my life, you'll be my little girl forever, not only the little but the mother of my baby that beats inside you now…
© Aroma of Romance May Madly IRAQ WAR MUST ENDPlease take a moment to watch a short film about the human cost of the Iraq war. It's a powerful reminder of the individual lives lost, and a call to take action to stop the carnage.
If the pro-peace majority can grow
and make ourselves heard:
We can end this war!
IT'S TIME TO WAGE PEACE
WE ARE THE MAJORITY
WE CAN END THE WAR
~ ~ ~ TELL CONGRESS
NOT ONE MORE DEATH
NOT ONE MORE DOLLAR
Dedicated to My Mother - me & her -
Lyrics by Sami Yusuf & Baraa Kherigi I just donno how to thank you my beloved mom.. ROMANCE MATHEMATICS Smart man + smart woman = Romance Smart man + dumb woman = Affair Dumb man + smart woman = Marriage Dumb man + dumb woman = Pregnancy OFFICE ARITHMETIC Smart boss + smart employee = Profit Smart boss + dumb employee = Production Dumb boss + smart employee = Promotion Dumb boss + dumb employee = Overtime NOW
The Butterfly EffectIn these past few days, I just realized how much humans can't be that wise in the right time; Maybe that's why the regret feeling was created. But even if you regret something, I wonder how you can fix it. Somethings can be fixed and could be even be better than before. And somethings if you spend all your life trying to fix it, you'll just fail. I donno how we can deal with these last things that I told you about them. Is there a way? is there an answer for such a feeling that can not go away? You can pray God to lose your memory so you can not remember details anymore. But, what about you, the pillar of your personnality was just a composition of these details, these things; you are what you are now just cause of these details. What a hard equation! you wish to lose your memory and you're just afraid to not be you anymore if this happened. Although these tiny details hurted you enough but you can not forget them, they built you.
A human is the error of thousand beings, yea that's how you become you, if you look deep in yourself, you'll find that everything in you was just a result or a reaction of a detail of some happened before. I know that some people might say I'm insane, what're you talking about! but that's me, I always say what I feel, what I'm thinking about, maybe they are strange thoughts, maybe they are not understandable, but at least they were born from my deep inside.
I made two new art work lately, They are completly dark I admit, though I'm not that sad. I'm just in a neutral mood. My life now is crowded with my faculty and my courses, sometimes I go out but little unfortunately, I don't have that much time yet.. I don't study well, I donno why.. But I've a big hope to start after Ramadan. Have a good day all! Love you!
Fiery riots spread beyond ParisFriday, November 4, 2005; Posted: 11:13 a.m. EST (16:13 GMT) Click here for more information
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< The Predators of the Net >
Many Children were abused sexually through the net and we didn't take our attention yet for such important thing like that. A Call for every parent, for every one who has a young sister or brother, take care of them! The Net is DANGEROUS! MaNy people are SICK! please do not hesitate to protect a human!
These Children had dreams! had a future! ADELA 5 years, IMAH 10 years, ERIC 8 years, MATHIEU 9 years.. They have all something in common, something that changed their lives.. A Meeting on the Net.. They use our meshes, their techniques are passing to our children.. Discussion through Chatting, on The Forums, they gain informations about their schools, when they go and come.. for one OBJECT Get their DESIRES... STOP!! Net Servers, Hackers, Pirates..
DON'T CLOSE YOUR EYES
FIND THEM
DON'T LET THIS VIRUS BETWEEN OUR CHILDREN
PIDOPHILIA
The Net Predators is a Clip made by Kstor Troy to fight against The Sexual Abuses and Pedophilia on the Internet. The subject isn't so strange but I think it deserves to take place on the blog.
Les prédateurs du Net est un clip réalisé par Kstor Troy pour lutter contre les abus sexuels et la pédophilie sur Internet. Le sujet n'est pas insolite ni drôle mais je pense qu'il a sa place ici sur le blog.
♥HAPPY RAMADAN
My Feeling after A College Day lol
Back to College!
But Still I love it lol ! I'm back to college! I started yesterday and guess what! we worked from the first minute!! seems that this year will be full tank lol but you know something, I think that the subjects are interesting! Specially Criminal Interntionl Law and Pleading Law.. I like to search between crimes and solve problems hehehe it's like a maze! But maybe they are somehow more difficult from the past years - I'm in 3rd year by the way - I should work hard coz I have a big chance and I wanna use it.. My Mom told me that if I'll have a Very Good Score I'll travel to France this summer :D what a motive! and I really wish that from many years.. the sad part is I won't write many blogs as before, but I'll try my best, know something, I'll really miss you my friends, wish me luck..
You're visitor number.... look upside lol
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